Yesterday we went to salt lake to get my mac fixed I lost the hard drive!!! On the way down I looked back and saw josslyn holding Connors hand she does it every time they are in the car together. Its like she wants him to know he is not alone !!! What a good big sister she is. I am so luck to have such wonderful children.
I woke up to feed Connor in the middle of the night well it was 4am, he fell asleep but I couldnt. I started researching the internet on HRHS and found out that back in September of 09 that Boston medical started doing surgery on fetus's that had HRHS and made it possible that when they were born that they no longer had that condition. I am so mad why didnt that Doctor find it why? I know I can't turn back time but it makes me hurt to know I could of helped my baby if that doctor would of taken the time to do his job on the ultra sound. I also came upon a study of women that had ultra sounds not high risk ones like me just the norm and they that found the heart defects. It said in the article that all defects connor has should of been found .
I am struggling today, in the back of my mind I'll I can think about is I could of fixed my baby and he wouldn't have had to go through all this.
14 just hits different
2 months ago
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