Love of my Life

Love of my Life

Heart Mother

One day my world came crashing down,I'll never be the same.They told me that my child was sick.I thought, "am I to blame"?I don't think I can handle this.I am really not that strong.It seemed my heart was breaking.I have loved him for so long.I will not give up on this child.I will listen to your advice.I will give my child any chance.No matter what the price.I will learn all that I need to help my child thrive.I'll even use that feeding tube.My child must survive!Will he need a lot of therapy?Will he gain the needed weight?Please God, help me do this.I will accept our fate.When the monitors beep at night, it serves as my reminder.How many parents would love that sound.Tomorrow I will be kinder.As another Angel earns his wings,I run to my child's bed.I watch him sleep for quite a while.I bend down and kiss his head.I cry for the parents whose hearts have been broken.I look to You wondering why?Oh Lord, I just can't know your matter how I try.And yet, I trust you hold his life, and guide us through each day.My mind says savor each moment he's here,but my heart begs, "PLEASE let him stay"!From pacing the surgical waiting room, to sitting by his bed.From wishing for a good nights sleep, to learning every med.From wondering, "will he be alright?", to watching him reach out his hands.With every smile my heart just melts, despite life's harsh demands.For all who see that faded line.I look to them and smile.You see my child is loved so much.I would face ANY trial.That scar I trace with my finger (It's the door to his beautiful heart).God must have known how much I'd love him (Just as He loved him from the start).A heart mom is always a heart mom.Now wise beyond her years.For those who have angels in heaven,Our hearts share in all of your tears.Every day I will try and remember,I was chosen for him (and no other).I will always embrace that beautiful day.......When I became a "Heart Mother"

Friday, April 2, 2010

Connors little buddie

After a long day Connor was hanging out while I was rushing around the house picking up after every one you know all the fun stuff....I stopped to check on connor because I hadn't heard a peep from him and I found him with his little buddy the frog fast asleep :)

the last couple of days Connor came down with a cold, poor little buddie he can't take anything for it because of his heart so we are doing everything possible to keep him from getting worse. On top of it we went shopping for the girls at old navy and jossy fell and hit her mouth on the floor and split her lip wide open. I want to thank the stranger that helped me to the car, everyone else stared as I struggled pushing a stroller and holding a little girl with blood pouring out of her mouth!!!!! one kind lady looked at me and said what can I take ? I thank you where ever you are, you are truly a wonderful person to help me load my children and stroller in my car and make sure my little girl was okay..... one act of kindness doesn't go un noticed.

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