Love of my Life

Love of my Life

Heart Mother

One day my world came crashing down,I'll never be the same.They told me that my child was sick.I thought, "am I to blame"?I don't think I can handle this.I am really not that strong.It seemed my heart was breaking.I have loved him for so long.I will not give up on this child.I will listen to your advice.I will give my child any chance.No matter what the price.I will learn all that I need to help my child thrive.I'll even use that feeding tube.My child must survive!Will he need a lot of therapy?Will he gain the needed weight?Please God, help me do this.I will accept our fate.When the monitors beep at night, it serves as my reminder.How many parents would love that sound.Tomorrow I will be kinder.As another Angel earns his wings,I run to my child's bed.I watch him sleep for quite a while.I bend down and kiss his head.I cry for the parents whose hearts have been broken.I look to You wondering why?Oh Lord, I just can't know your matter how I try.And yet, I trust you hold his life, and guide us through each day.My mind says savor each moment he's here,but my heart begs, "PLEASE let him stay"!From pacing the surgical waiting room, to sitting by his bed.From wishing for a good nights sleep, to learning every med.From wondering, "will he be alright?", to watching him reach out his hands.With every smile my heart just melts, despite life's harsh demands.For all who see that faded line.I look to them and smile.You see my child is loved so much.I would face ANY trial.That scar I trace with my finger (It's the door to his beautiful heart).God must have known how much I'd love him (Just as He loved him from the start).A heart mom is always a heart mom.Now wise beyond her years.For those who have angels in heaven,Our hearts share in all of your tears.Every day I will try and remember,I was chosen for him (and no other).I will always embrace that beautiful day.......When I became a "Heart Mother"

Sunday, May 16, 2010

Princess Josslyn's Birthday

What a day.............I have wanted a playland for my kids for who knows how long so I finally went and got one. My poor poor husband got the job of putting it together ..........we started at 8am and at sundown finished it??!!!! What a project and in the midst of that we pulled off Josslyns princess birthday party.

Jossy was so excited to have the balloons and she kept on saying everything was hers :)  don't even think of  trying to see any of her toys..... she told people leave it alone !!!! which is so so funny coming from her.

She was so sleepy that she fell asleep around 6 o' clock when I usually have to struggle with her to go to bed by 9 or so.

Connor is doing well but I am afraid that he has come down with a cold ........which has been going around with my other kids. I swear now that I am so protective of him getting sick everyone and their dogs are getting sick around us. I've put in a call to our next door neighbor since he is our family doctor to come and listen to his lungs. At the hospital his left lung had collapsed so It makes me worry to have him get sick :(

All I can say I am not as young as I use to be and my body hurts today I just did too much thank heavens for Sundays :)

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