Love of my Life

Love of my Life

Heart Mother

One day my world came crashing down,I'll never be the same.They told me that my child was sick.I thought, "am I to blame"?I don't think I can handle this.I am really not that strong.It seemed my heart was breaking.I have loved him for so long.I will not give up on this child.I will listen to your advice.I will give my child any chance.No matter what the price.I will learn all that I need to help my child thrive.I'll even use that feeding tube.My child must survive!Will he need a lot of therapy?Will he gain the needed weight?Please God, help me do this.I will accept our fate.When the monitors beep at night, it serves as my reminder.How many parents would love that sound.Tomorrow I will be kinder.As another Angel earns his wings,I run to my child's bed.I watch him sleep for quite a while.I bend down and kiss his head.I cry for the parents whose hearts have been broken.I look to You wondering why?Oh Lord, I just can't know your matter how I try.And yet, I trust you hold his life, and guide us through each day.My mind says savor each moment he's here,but my heart begs, "PLEASE let him stay"!From pacing the surgical waiting room, to sitting by his bed.From wishing for a good nights sleep, to learning every med.From wondering, "will he be alright?", to watching him reach out his hands.With every smile my heart just melts, despite life's harsh demands.For all who see that faded line.I look to them and smile.You see my child is loved so much.I would face ANY trial.That scar I trace with my finger (It's the door to his beautiful heart).God must have known how much I'd love him (Just as He loved him from the start).A heart mom is always a heart mom.Now wise beyond her years.For those who have angels in heaven,Our hearts share in all of your tears.Every day I will try and remember,I was chosen for him (and no other).I will always embrace that beautiful day.......When I became a "Heart Mother"

Sunday, June 13, 2010

My friends Idea

I stole this from a dear friend I met in the CICU and I just loved it ...............Amy I hope you don't mind :)

I want you all that follow my little Connor to write him a letter and post it here on his blog, I want to compile them and make a book for when he is older.

I know he has touched so many with his story and what he has gone through and I want to make a keepsake for him to have when he is older so when he is  having a bad day or just wants to read about how all of us felt about him .........

Send us your love :)


One Happy Heart Family said...

Dear Connor,

I have only met you for a few moments, but look forward to meeting you more!! You are such a handsome little guy!! You are so strong and have proved what a miracle you are!! You have one of the best Mommy's around and I just adore her!!! She is so beautiful and loving! She has shown me how to be strong and stay positive. You have a very strong loving family who loves you so much!! Thank you for being such a great example for all the future heart babies to come!! Praing you continue to grow and be heathy and happy!!

Lots of Love,
mom to Kylie

Amy Sabin said...

Dear Connor,

What an amazing spirit you have! I met you when you were across the hall from my daughter Annie in the CICU. You are such a sweet and strong boy and I know that you are a gift to all that meet you. I know your mom is kind and strong and loves you dearly. You have been in my thoughts and prayers often.

Amy Sabin