Love of my Life

Love of my Life

Heart Mother

One day my world came crashing down,I'll never be the same.They told me that my child was sick.I thought, "am I to blame"?I don't think I can handle this.I am really not that strong.It seemed my heart was breaking.I have loved him for so long.I will not give up on this child.I will listen to your advice.I will give my child any chance.No matter what the price.I will learn all that I need to help my child thrive.I'll even use that feeding tube.My child must survive!Will he need a lot of therapy?Will he gain the needed weight?Please God, help me do this.I will accept our fate.When the monitors beep at night, it serves as my reminder.How many parents would love that sound.Tomorrow I will be kinder.As another Angel earns his wings,I run to my child's bed.I watch him sleep for quite a while.I bend down and kiss his head.I cry for the parents whose hearts have been broken.I look to You wondering why?Oh Lord, I just can't know your matter how I try.And yet, I trust you hold his life, and guide us through each day.My mind says savor each moment he's here,but my heart begs, "PLEASE let him stay"!From pacing the surgical waiting room, to sitting by his bed.From wishing for a good nights sleep, to learning every med.From wondering, "will he be alright?", to watching him reach out his hands.With every smile my heart just melts, despite life's harsh demands.For all who see that faded line.I look to them and smile.You see my child is loved so much.I would face ANY trial.That scar I trace with my finger (It's the door to his beautiful heart).God must have known how much I'd love him (Just as He loved him from the start).A heart mom is always a heart mom.Now wise beyond her years.For those who have angels in heaven,Our hearts share in all of your tears.Every day I will try and remember,I was chosen for him (and no other).I will always embrace that beautiful day.......When I became a "Heart Mother"

Sunday, July 31, 2011

O where O where have we been

July were did it go, we have swam and played in the backyard and played golf and just had a fun month!!!!

Connor man is a wanderer he will go outside and wander and never looking back he just likes to do his own thing.........He keeps us busy chasing him around the house neighbors yards etc.

He just loves our pool !!! Yes it is a above ground pool, but I love it!!!!! When we bought it we made sure Jossy and Conman could touch the bottom and it has worked perfectly.

Jossy and I planted a garden and boy has it grown. I'll I can say is we won't be needing any tomatoes or Pumpkins or strawberries for the summer. It has been fun helping joss grow her garden and water it everyday.

As for me, I've been busy with our yard ....It is my hobby for the summer there is nothing better then being outside in the sun and enjoying our beautiful back yard...... it is my therapy it keeps me busy and Happy.........??? now if I can find somthing for this up coming winter.........

Whitt has been busy playing and being sassy thats what you do when you 10 right???

For the end of the Month we celebrated Whittney's birthday ( Real birthday is August 2nd) But it was a tuesday night and not a good time to have a big party!!!

We did a movie night it was fabulous !!!! We had a big blow up screen that had mickey ears and a projector with a sound system along with it we had fresh pop corn from our cute pop corn machine....
 food & music, swimming and a movie ...... It was a Dinner and a Show !!!! My Favorite saying

Connor loved wandering the yard and eating the popcorn he would plant himself to next the most available person and sit and eat his popcorn and licorice!!!! He is so so funny he just loves life!!

It was a great month and we missed Mckenna and Michael who didn't come up for the summer.....You should both know you missed a great summer.

Hopeful we will be back from our vacation when you come for christmas????? LOL

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