Love of my Life

Love of my Life

Heart Mother

One day my world came crashing down,I'll never be the same.They told me that my child was sick.I thought, "am I to blame"?I don't think I can handle this.I am really not that strong.It seemed my heart was breaking.I have loved him for so long.I will not give up on this child.I will listen to your advice.I will give my child any chance.No matter what the price.I will learn all that I need to help my child thrive.I'll even use that feeding tube.My child must survive!Will he need a lot of therapy?Will he gain the needed weight?Please God, help me do this.I will accept our fate.When the monitors beep at night, it serves as my reminder.How many parents would love that sound.Tomorrow I will be kinder.As another Angel earns his wings,I run to my child's bed.I watch him sleep for quite a while.I bend down and kiss his head.I cry for the parents whose hearts have been broken.I look to You wondering why?Oh Lord, I just can't know your matter how I try.And yet, I trust you hold his life, and guide us through each day.My mind says savor each moment he's here,but my heart begs, "PLEASE let him stay"!From pacing the surgical waiting room, to sitting by his bed.From wishing for a good nights sleep, to learning every med.From wondering, "will he be alright?", to watching him reach out his hands.With every smile my heart just melts, despite life's harsh demands.For all who see that faded line.I look to them and smile.You see my child is loved so much.I would face ANY trial.That scar I trace with my finger (It's the door to his beautiful heart).God must have known how much I'd love him (Just as He loved him from the start).A heart mom is always a heart mom.Now wise beyond her years.For those who have angels in heaven,Our hearts share in all of your tears.Every day I will try and remember,I was chosen for him (and no other).I will always embrace that beautiful day.......When I became a "Heart Mother"

Tuesday, June 5, 2012


Life Lately I've struggled with a few things that keep on popping there ugly head up in my life !!!!

I've decided that I need to protect me and  have taken this motto to life

I hope all that follow me and my little Connor will read this and will do the same

People are often unreasonable, irrational, and self-centered.
Forgive them anyway.           
 If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives.
Be kind anyway.            
If you are successful, you will win some unfaithful friends and some genuine enemies.
 Succeed anyway.          
 If you are honest and sincere people may deceive you. 
Be honest and sincere anyway.          
  What you spend years creating, others could destroy overnight. 
Create anyway.            
If you find serenity and happiness, some may be jealous. 
Be happy anyway.           
 The good you do today, will often be forgotten.
 Do good anyway.         
Give the best you have, and it will never be enough. 
Give your best anyway.        
 In the final analysis, it is between you and God.
 It was never between you and them anyway.

 -this version is credited to Mother Teresa ____________________________

Life is always hard but I chose to live it

 Love Iv

1 comment:

Angee and Thom said...

I was just thinking about you guys! What a beautiful mantra, now live it!