Love of my Life

Love of my Life

Heart Mother

One day my world came crashing down,I'll never be the same.They told me that my child was sick.I thought, "am I to blame"?I don't think I can handle this.I am really not that strong.It seemed my heart was breaking.I have loved him for so long.I will not give up on this child.I will listen to your advice.I will give my child any chance.No matter what the price.I will learn all that I need to help my child thrive.I'll even use that feeding tube.My child must survive!Will he need a lot of therapy?Will he gain the needed weight?Please God, help me do this.I will accept our fate.When the monitors beep at night, it serves as my reminder.How many parents would love that sound.Tomorrow I will be kinder.As another Angel earns his wings,I run to my child's bed.I watch him sleep for quite a while.I bend down and kiss his head.I cry for the parents whose hearts have been broken.I look to You wondering why?Oh Lord, I just can't know your matter how I try.And yet, I trust you hold his life, and guide us through each day.My mind says savor each moment he's here,but my heart begs, "PLEASE let him stay"!From pacing the surgical waiting room, to sitting by his bed.From wishing for a good nights sleep, to learning every med.From wondering, "will he be alright?", to watching him reach out his hands.With every smile my heart just melts, despite life's harsh demands.For all who see that faded line.I look to them and smile.You see my child is loved so much.I would face ANY trial.That scar I trace with my finger (It's the door to his beautiful heart).God must have known how much I'd love him (Just as He loved him from the start).A heart mom is always a heart mom.Now wise beyond her years.For those who have angels in heaven,Our hearts share in all of your tears.Every day I will try and remember,I was chosen for him (and no other).I will always embrace that beautiful day.......When I became a "Heart Mother"

Sunday, May 30, 2010


Last couple of days have been fun. Getting to hang out with the kids go to the movies ( Shrek 4 3D) Watching Connor man getting his toes in his mouth ( he has been working on it for the last week ) Getting to see my family at Maddox........................ My favorite place to eat.............Connor has been laughing, playing and being his cute self.

Michael came up for the summer and wow what a great kid.......He works all the time. He helps around the house.................................... dishes and cleaning..................................... could not ask for a better kid. We are missing kenna wish she was here with us too!!!! We have so many trips and things to do.............Hawaii, Califronia, Oregon etc we are going to have so much fun..........Adventures here we come, Life is short so we are going to make the most of my time off with my babies

On a sad note my little heart friend Annie is having a really tough week and has a possible surgery that has never been done before ahead of her. I ask all my friends and family to pray for this sweet little girl. I got to see her mom and her in the CICU they were just across the hall from us and all we need is a small miracle for her. :)  Sending our love to you Amy I pray for you to have the strength and peace to endure this next week and please believe small miracles happen everyday and when will come your way for Annie.

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