Love of my Life

Love of my Life

Heart Mother

One day my world came crashing down,I'll never be the same.They told me that my child was sick.I thought, "am I to blame"?I don't think I can handle this.I am really not that strong.It seemed my heart was breaking.I have loved him for so long.I will not give up on this child.I will listen to your advice.I will give my child any chance.No matter what the price.I will learn all that I need to help my child thrive.I'll even use that feeding tube.My child must survive!Will he need a lot of therapy?Will he gain the needed weight?Please God, help me do this.I will accept our fate.When the monitors beep at night, it serves as my reminder.How many parents would love that sound.Tomorrow I will be kinder.As another Angel earns his wings,I run to my child's bed.I watch him sleep for quite a while.I bend down and kiss his head.I cry for the parents whose hearts have been broken.I look to You wondering why?Oh Lord, I just can't know your ways....no matter how I try.And yet, I trust you hold his life, and guide us through each day.My mind says savor each moment he's here,but my heart begs, "PLEASE let him stay"!From pacing the surgical waiting room, to sitting by his bed.From wishing for a good nights sleep, to learning every med.From wondering, "will he be alright?", to watching him reach out his hands.With every smile my heart just melts, despite life's harsh demands.For all who see that faded line.I look to them and smile.You see my child is loved so much.I would face ANY trial.That scar I trace with my finger (It's the door to his beautiful heart).God must have known how much I'd love him (Just as He loved him from the start).A heart mom is always a heart mom.Now wise beyond her years.For those who have angels in heaven,Our hearts share in all of your tears.Every day I will try and remember,I was chosen for him (and no other).I will always embrace that beautiful day.......When I became a "Heart Mother"

Saturday, June 19, 2010

Ain't no mountain high enough

we told him not to drink the water but will he listen ???? I guess not ........


Today we went to swim at bear lake but found that we didn't know where to go for the good beaches ...........................All were marked Private So...............  we found the Drive in with the best rasberry shakes and that was good enough for us........


Then it was off to climb a mountain .........................................
We wanted to see Bloomington lake........Okay it looked easy so we started off on the trail ...........................then got lost on to a trail that cattle had used......................we back tracked and found the right trail.........we walked and walked and walked and saw alot of beaver dams which the kids thought were cool !!!!..................................so not all was lost.........................we finally met up with a couple that was on their way down and they told us it was another 2 1/2 miles till the lake?????
................................................. Okay it was time to turn around and make our way down we had done the best we could do but another 2 miles up was way too much for all of us. ...... We had thought it was a 1/2 mile track to the lake .....I guess we were wrong.


On the way down we found this cool water fall and the kids loved playing on it..........All and all we had a high adventure and it was fun just being together and playing in the water.

Connor loved the water he had to put his toes in it he laughed the whole time............................................... Joss loved the trees and birds and loved loved the water fall and guess what????..............................................  the kids didn't fight all day :) It was a beautiful beautiful day .

1 comment:

She Made Mention said...

when are we gonna meet up at Bear Lake, no--- seriously???

I've only been once and I'm dying to go again. Dying.

Glad you had such a fun day. Looks and sounds as if you had an absolute blast. You deserve that.

xoxoxo,
Jess