Love of my Life

Love of my Life

Heart Mother

One day my world came crashing down,I'll never be the same.They told me that my child was sick.I thought, "am I to blame"?I don't think I can handle this.I am really not that strong.It seemed my heart was breaking.I have loved him for so long.I will not give up on this child.I will listen to your advice.I will give my child any chance.No matter what the price.I will learn all that I need to help my child thrive.I'll even use that feeding tube.My child must survive!Will he need a lot of therapy?Will he gain the needed weight?Please God, help me do this.I will accept our fate.When the monitors beep at night, it serves as my reminder.How many parents would love that sound.Tomorrow I will be kinder.As another Angel earns his wings,I run to my child's bed.I watch him sleep for quite a while.I bend down and kiss his head.I cry for the parents whose hearts have been broken.I look to You wondering why?Oh Lord, I just can't know your matter how I try.And yet, I trust you hold his life, and guide us through each day.My mind says savor each moment he's here,but my heart begs, "PLEASE let him stay"!From pacing the surgical waiting room, to sitting by his bed.From wishing for a good nights sleep, to learning every med.From wondering, "will he be alright?", to watching him reach out his hands.With every smile my heart just melts, despite life's harsh demands.For all who see that faded line.I look to them and smile.You see my child is loved so much.I would face ANY trial.That scar I trace with my finger (It's the door to his beautiful heart).God must have known how much I'd love him (Just as He loved him from the start).A heart mom is always a heart mom.Now wise beyond her years.For those who have angels in heaven,Our hearts share in all of your tears.Every day I will try and remember,I was chosen for him (and no other).I will always embrace that beautiful day.......When I became a "Heart Mother"

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

Picnic boo boo bear

Memorial day picnic with my family...................It's been fun to get to be with my family for two days now!!!!

We went to bountiful to a beautiful canyon just to relax and be together.....the kids had a blast and played hide and seek. Aria fell and got bandaged up .....................smiling the whole time she is such a ham. My little kailey was there and I just love her.....She is the one that helped me get this blog up and running :) Without her I would be lost :)

My mom and dad which I love so much and miss.... I am so glade to be able to spend time with them :)
Cole and the boys spent the day building the fire ...........well making some great smoke anyway

Casey was there with his butt hanging out of his skinny boy jeans which I love to tease him about.

Mone't and Rocco where there too.

It was a beautiful day to spend with the family and just be HAPPY TOGETHER !!!!!!


Amy Sabin said...


Connor looks so great! I hope you are doing well and he is staying healthy and strong. Thanks for your friendship.

Andrea said...

My husband made our magnet board. He used two sheets of metal from Lowe's and framed it with wood. It's like 6 feet tall.
Thanks for the nice comment on the blog.
Angel Wyatt's mommy