Love of my Life

Love of my Life

Heart Mother

One day my world came crashing down,I'll never be the same.They told me that my child was sick.I thought, "am I to blame"?I don't think I can handle this.I am really not that strong.It seemed my heart was breaking.I have loved him for so long.I will not give up on this child.I will listen to your advice.I will give my child any chance.No matter what the price.I will learn all that I need to help my child thrive.I'll even use that feeding tube.My child must survive!Will he need a lot of therapy?Will he gain the needed weight?Please God, help me do this.I will accept our fate.When the monitors beep at night, it serves as my reminder.How many parents would love that sound.Tomorrow I will be kinder.As another Angel earns his wings,I run to my child's bed.I watch him sleep for quite a while.I bend down and kiss his head.I cry for the parents whose hearts have been broken.I look to You wondering why?Oh Lord, I just can't know your ways....no matter how I try.And yet, I trust you hold his life, and guide us through each day.My mind says savor each moment he's here,but my heart begs, "PLEASE let him stay"!From pacing the surgical waiting room, to sitting by his bed.From wishing for a good nights sleep, to learning every med.From wondering, "will he be alright?", to watching him reach out his hands.With every smile my heart just melts, despite life's harsh demands.For all who see that faded line.I look to them and smile.You see my child is loved so much.I would face ANY trial.That scar I trace with my finger (It's the door to his beautiful heart).God must have known how much I'd love him (Just as He loved him from the start).A heart mom is always a heart mom.Now wise beyond her years.For those who have angels in heaven,Our hearts share in all of your tears.Every day I will try and remember,I was chosen for him (and no other).I will always embrace that beautiful day.......When I became a "Heart Mother"

Thursday, August 5, 2010

Hope


Hope nudges me forward...


When things don't seem clear...

It reaches for my hand...

And says, "Have no fear"...

It points to the mountain...

And says..."Are you ready"?

It's time to begin...

Just keep yourself steady...

And when my steps falter...

I cry..."I can't do this"...

Hope pulls me up...

And says,"We will get through this"...

Together we walk...

Toward the ominous hill...

Then I ask hope again...

Are you sure it's His will?

It's so very dark...

Toward the long road ahead...

I wonder...if I should just stay here instead...

Hope squeezes my hand...

I squeeze back real tight...

Hope says we must go...

And... I know he is right.

As we trudge up the mountain...

Into the unknown...

Hope soon reminds me...

I'm never alone...

Then we reach the summit...

We have come so far...

At the top of this mountain...

I see every star...

Did you think we would make it?

Hope asks, with a smile...

Did you think you'd keep going...

In the midst of your trial?

God surely led you...

Yes...every...day...

He marked out your path...

And then...He paved the way.

And now we'll part ways...

For just a short while...

As you have surpassed...

The worst of your trial...

The path from this place...

Is only downhill...

It's much easier...

And it takes little skill.

I thanked my companion...

For leading the way...

And helping me get...

Where I'm standing today.

God paved the way...

When I thought..."I can't cope"...

He taught me to climb...

And then, He sent ..."Hope".



~Stephanie Husted

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