Love of my Life

Love of my Life

Heart Mother

One day my world came crashing down,I'll never be the same.They told me that my child was sick.I thought, "am I to blame"?I don't think I can handle this.I am really not that strong.It seemed my heart was breaking.I have loved him for so long.I will not give up on this child.I will listen to your advice.I will give my child any chance.No matter what the price.I will learn all that I need to help my child thrive.I'll even use that feeding tube.My child must survive!Will he need a lot of therapy?Will he gain the needed weight?Please God, help me do this.I will accept our fate.When the monitors beep at night, it serves as my reminder.How many parents would love that sound.Tomorrow I will be kinder.As another Angel earns his wings,I run to my child's bed.I watch him sleep for quite a while.I bend down and kiss his head.I cry for the parents whose hearts have been broken.I look to You wondering why?Oh Lord, I just can't know your matter how I try.And yet, I trust you hold his life, and guide us through each day.My mind says savor each moment he's here,but my heart begs, "PLEASE let him stay"!From pacing the surgical waiting room, to sitting by his bed.From wishing for a good nights sleep, to learning every med.From wondering, "will he be alright?", to watching him reach out his hands.With every smile my heart just melts, despite life's harsh demands.For all who see that faded line.I look to them and smile.You see my child is loved so much.I would face ANY trial.That scar I trace with my finger (It's the door to his beautiful heart).God must have known how much I'd love him (Just as He loved him from the start).A heart mom is always a heart mom.Now wise beyond her years.For those who have angels in heaven,Our hearts share in all of your tears.Every day I will try and remember,I was chosen for him (and no other).I will always embrace that beautiful day.......When I became a "Heart Mother"

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

Our Day Together

On my Birthday my little boy turned 10 months old.......................And I turned 21.
 In my heart anyway.

The day was great woke up to breakfast and a massage. Then off to a movie

The rest of the night was our Halloween Party we have every year and this year was a blast.
 My sister and her family were able to come up and some of our friends and neighbors, our house was packed,

We also had a million Trick or Treaters which we just left the door open and made Whitt stand guard at the door.
I dont know if it is just me this year the kids would just walk in the house?????
little Odd or is it normal for people to let their kids go into strangers homes????????

Anyway Connor had enough right when the party started, then it hit me.
 I have two babies that are use to haing their dinner and then off to bed. Their just like clock work and if we try to change it, there is hell to pay.

All said and done the party was fun but I think next year it will be Pizza and Trick and Treating for us. Maybe when the little ones are bigger we can start the Halloween party again

It is so nice to be 21 and I can't believe how I keep on getting younger :)

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