Love of my Life

Love of my Life

Heart Mother

One day my world came crashing down,I'll never be the same.They told me that my child was sick.I thought, "am I to blame"?I don't think I can handle this.I am really not that strong.It seemed my heart was breaking.I have loved him for so long.I will not give up on this child.I will listen to your advice.I will give my child any chance.No matter what the price.I will learn all that I need to help my child thrive.I'll even use that feeding tube.My child must survive!Will he need a lot of therapy?Will he gain the needed weight?Please God, help me do this.I will accept our fate.When the monitors beep at night, it serves as my reminder.How many parents would love that sound.Tomorrow I will be kinder.As another Angel earns his wings,I run to my child's bed.I watch him sleep for quite a while.I bend down and kiss his head.I cry for the parents whose hearts have been broken.I look to You wondering why?Oh Lord, I just can't know your matter how I try.And yet, I trust you hold his life, and guide us through each day.My mind says savor each moment he's here,but my heart begs, "PLEASE let him stay"!From pacing the surgical waiting room, to sitting by his bed.From wishing for a good nights sleep, to learning every med.From wondering, "will he be alright?", to watching him reach out his hands.With every smile my heart just melts, despite life's harsh demands.For all who see that faded line.I look to them and smile.You see my child is loved so much.I would face ANY trial.That scar I trace with my finger (It's the door to his beautiful heart).God must have known how much I'd love him (Just as He loved him from the start).A heart mom is always a heart mom.Now wise beyond her years.For those who have angels in heaven,Our hearts share in all of your tears.Every day I will try and remember,I was chosen for him (and no other).I will always embrace that beautiful day.......When I became a "Heart Mother"

Friday, April 1, 2011


Hope - by Stephanie Husted

Running...through my life so grand
No need to stop
Or understand
God is goes well
No need to stop
Until I fell.

And when my life
Came crashing down
Like puzzle pieces
On the ground.

I didn't want
To stop and pray
Or listen to others
That said, "it's okay".

A pat on the back
We're praying for you
We know of the pain
That your going through.

But do you, I wonder?
As I stop and sigh
Do you imagine each day
That your child may die?

Just live for the moment
I say, with a smile
But inside I'm thinking
I'm tired of this trial.

You see tired eyes
And nails unfiled
But I see a mother
Who just wants her child.

Too many angels
Too many tears
Too many memories
That add to my fears.

I've sent many cards
Of caring concern
To parent's now grieving
Lord, help me discern.

Is this your plan?
Can it really be?
Is this your way
To make us all see?

It's not fair! It's not fair!
I just can't stop thinking
With my head above water
I feel myself sinking.

I try to imagine
Not hearing her giggles
Not seeing her smile
Or watching her wiggles.

Is it so very wrong...
That I feel this way?
That I let fear creep in
And steal hope for today?

Should I dream for tomorrow?
Dare I even believe?
That things will be fine
That I'll never grieve.

But what is life
If hope's not a part?
And what is hope?
But a dream in your heart.

I'll hope...believe
I'll dream and pray
For one thing is certain
And that is, "today".

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