Love of my Life

Love of my Life

Heart Mother

One day my world came crashing down,I'll never be the same.They told me that my child was sick.I thought, "am I to blame"?I don't think I can handle this.I am really not that strong.It seemed my heart was breaking.I have loved him for so long.I will not give up on this child.I will listen to your advice.I will give my child any chance.No matter what the price.I will learn all that I need to help my child thrive.I'll even use that feeding tube.My child must survive!Will he need a lot of therapy?Will he gain the needed weight?Please God, help me do this.I will accept our fate.When the monitors beep at night, it serves as my reminder.How many parents would love that sound.Tomorrow I will be kinder.As another Angel earns his wings,I run to my child's bed.I watch him sleep for quite a while.I bend down and kiss his head.I cry for the parents whose hearts have been broken.I look to You wondering why?Oh Lord, I just can't know your matter how I try.And yet, I trust you hold his life, and guide us through each day.My mind says savor each moment he's here,but my heart begs, "PLEASE let him stay"!From pacing the surgical waiting room, to sitting by his bed.From wishing for a good nights sleep, to learning every med.From wondering, "will he be alright?", to watching him reach out his hands.With every smile my heart just melts, despite life's harsh demands.For all who see that faded line.I look to them and smile.You see my child is loved so much.I would face ANY trial.That scar I trace with my finger (It's the door to his beautiful heart).God must have known how much I'd love him (Just as He loved him from the start).A heart mom is always a heart mom.Now wise beyond her years.For those who have angels in heaven,Our hearts share in all of your tears.Every day I will try and remember,I was chosen for him (and no other).I will always embrace that beautiful day.......When I became a "Heart Mother"

Saturday, March 26, 2011

O daddy I can help you ..............just watch me

 Connor loves to work he will scream until we let him pick up the tools and work with his buddy his dad
We bought him some toy tools but o no that will not do he has to have the real thing !!!!!!

 He bangs the tools on the floor and he is delighted that the house is torn apart he laughs when we tear down the walls and do anything to make a mess......this kid loves adventure and let me tell you not having a kitchen will suffice

 And what does my princess do while we are working on the house?????????
 Plays play dough and does it all by herself !!!!! You could not ask for a better child she is so sweet and loving and doesn't mind if we are so busy we cant play she does it all by herself and is happy as can be :)
 Michael and Mckenna had spring break this week and they were lucky enough to pick the best day to ski. I wanted so badly to go also maybe next time. Whitt was lucky to play hooky and go with them some days you just have to spend time having fun and they had a blast!!!!!!!!!!

1 comment:

Angee and Thom said...

Conner is ALL BOY! I'm sorry your kitchen is a mess. I thought I'd go crazy when we remodeled our kitchen. It is so nice when it is done. If we lived closer I would bring you dinner!