Love of my Life

Love of my Life

Heart Mother

One day my world came crashing down,I'll never be the same.They told me that my child was sick.I thought, "am I to blame"?I don't think I can handle this.I am really not that strong.It seemed my heart was breaking.I have loved him for so long.I will not give up on this child.I will listen to your advice.I will give my child any chance.No matter what the price.I will learn all that I need to help my child thrive.I'll even use that feeding tube.My child must survive!Will he need a lot of therapy?Will he gain the needed weight?Please God, help me do this.I will accept our fate.When the monitors beep at night, it serves as my reminder.How many parents would love that sound.Tomorrow I will be kinder.As another Angel earns his wings,I run to my child's bed.I watch him sleep for quite a while.I bend down and kiss his head.I cry for the parents whose hearts have been broken.I look to You wondering why?Oh Lord, I just can't know your matter how I try.And yet, I trust you hold his life, and guide us through each day.My mind says savor each moment he's here,but my heart begs, "PLEASE let him stay"!From pacing the surgical waiting room, to sitting by his bed.From wishing for a good nights sleep, to learning every med.From wondering, "will he be alright?", to watching him reach out his hands.With every smile my heart just melts, despite life's harsh demands.For all who see that faded line.I look to them and smile.You see my child is loved so much.I would face ANY trial.That scar I trace with my finger (It's the door to his beautiful heart).God must have known how much I'd love him (Just as He loved him from the start).A heart mom is always a heart mom.Now wise beyond her years.For those who have angels in heaven,Our hearts share in all of your tears.Every day I will try and remember,I was chosen for him (and no other).I will always embrace that beautiful day.......When I became a "Heart Mother"

Sunday, July 3, 2011

My Team, My Heart, My Love

 Team Connor
From Left to right
Ashley miranda. Shane Murphy, Me and Connor, Sandra and Parley My Mom and Dad,Cole, Aunt Mone't, Nadalynn, Whittney, Tanner Debry, Emily,Todd Wells, Lara Wells, Brenda Buckwalter, Jossy
My Team, My heart, My Loves
I've never taken the time to Thank all that Supported my heart group and Intermountain Healing Hearts!!!!
When Connor was first born I was truely lost and the group Intermountain healing hearts saved my mind soul and heart!!!! I am forever grateful for the group of women that time out to make us feel that it will be okay and that there is HOPE in our Future!!!!!!!!!!
 Nady and Whitt, Todd and Dad getting ready for the race !!!!
 Dad and Connor

 Tanner and Emily you are the best you pushed the Babies the whole way !!!!!
 Aunty LaLa dancing with Joss
 My Heart mom friend Heidi
 Annie my friend and Little Conner her heart baby
 The Finish Line
Nadalynns friend that came all the way from centerville to Support of Team Connor
What a sweet heart!!!!!

It was a fun filled day and I can not say how much I love my family they took the time to come Run and support my group !!!!!!!!! I am so lucky to be apart of a family that love each other and cares so much about me and Connor  !!!!!

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