Love of my Life

Love of my Life

Heart Mother

One day my world came crashing down,I'll never be the same.They told me that my child was sick.I thought, "am I to blame"?I don't think I can handle this.I am really not that strong.It seemed my heart was breaking.I have loved him for so long.I will not give up on this child.I will listen to your advice.I will give my child any chance.No matter what the price.I will learn all that I need to help my child thrive.I'll even use that feeding tube.My child must survive!Will he need a lot of therapy?Will he gain the needed weight?Please God, help me do this.I will accept our fate.When the monitors beep at night, it serves as my reminder.How many parents would love that sound.Tomorrow I will be kinder.As another Angel earns his wings,I run to my child's bed.I watch him sleep for quite a while.I bend down and kiss his head.I cry for the parents whose hearts have been broken.I look to You wondering why?Oh Lord, I just can't know your matter how I try.And yet, I trust you hold his life, and guide us through each day.My mind says savor each moment he's here,but my heart begs, "PLEASE let him stay"!From pacing the surgical waiting room, to sitting by his bed.From wishing for a good nights sleep, to learning every med.From wondering, "will he be alright?", to watching him reach out his hands.With every smile my heart just melts, despite life's harsh demands.For all who see that faded line.I look to them and smile.You see my child is loved so much.I would face ANY trial.That scar I trace with my finger (It's the door to his beautiful heart).God must have known how much I'd love him (Just as He loved him from the start).A heart mom is always a heart mom.Now wise beyond her years.For those who have angels in heaven,Our hearts share in all of your tears.Every day I will try and remember,I was chosen for him (and no other).I will always embrace that beautiful day.......When I became a "Heart Mother"

Friday, August 26, 2011

My baby is sick sick sick

I hate it when he gets sick last night at 1am I checked on him and he was burning up and breathing too fast I hooked him up to his pulse ox and he's sats were ok but heart rate was 138 way to high for my little man. I called my pediatrician and asked what the plan of attack was to help him he had a dose of ibuprofen and Tylenol together and a warm bath through out the night.

You know that he is sick when all he wants is me to hold him and rock him to sleep all night long around 6am he feel asleep and has been pretty mellow all day

Please pray for my little man that this bug will pass soon and not over work his little heart.

I HATE IT WHEN HE IS SICK I hate it worse when people that have been sick come and around and expose my little man to this crap ole Why o why don't they listen when I say not to come over if you have been sick for the last seven days I guess they are not listening and think this is just me over reacting

We are trying to figure out the rash that has shown up all over his body and face today ?????

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