Love of my Life

Love of my Life

Heart Mother

One day my world came crashing down,I'll never be the same.They told me that my child was sick.I thought, "am I to blame"?I don't think I can handle this.I am really not that strong.It seemed my heart was breaking.I have loved him for so long.I will not give up on this child.I will listen to your advice.I will give my child any chance.No matter what the price.I will learn all that I need to help my child thrive.I'll even use that feeding tube.My child must survive!Will he need a lot of therapy?Will he gain the needed weight?Please God, help me do this.I will accept our fate.When the monitors beep at night, it serves as my reminder.How many parents would love that sound.Tomorrow I will be kinder.As another Angel earns his wings,I run to my child's bed.I watch him sleep for quite a while.I bend down and kiss his head.I cry for the parents whose hearts have been broken.I look to You wondering why?Oh Lord, I just can't know your matter how I try.And yet, I trust you hold his life, and guide us through each day.My mind says savor each moment he's here,but my heart begs, "PLEASE let him stay"!From pacing the surgical waiting room, to sitting by his bed.From wishing for a good nights sleep, to learning every med.From wondering, "will he be alright?", to watching him reach out his hands.With every smile my heart just melts, despite life's harsh demands.For all who see that faded line.I look to them and smile.You see my child is loved so much.I would face ANY trial.That scar I trace with my finger (It's the door to his beautiful heart).God must have known how much I'd love him (Just as He loved him from the start).A heart mom is always a heart mom.Now wise beyond her years.For those who have angels in heaven,Our hearts share in all of your tears.Every day I will try and remember,I was chosen for him (and no other).I will always embrace that beautiful day.......When I became a "Heart Mother"

Sunday, August 28, 2011

Where did this all come from??????????????????

So we had Connor checked today to see why the rash was getting worse and get this he has......................... the German Measles.???????????

Where in tar nations did he get those from. Reading up on this delightful virus you can be exposed up to 23 days before without any thing being noticed and the greatest thing it is highly contagious which means we are home bound which isn't much difference and just more worry

Connor is covered in a red rash all over his poor little body >>> It makes me cry, I am to blame I didn't protect him from the germs

It is so so scary

I  am on high alert no more mister nice guy !!!!!!!!

If you come to my house you better be sure that you haven't been sick or I will rip you a new one I am so tired of telling especially my husbands brothers wife if you kids are sick please don't come to my house which I am sure this who they got this from I am so angry at my self and stupidity!!!

And one more thing not only did Connor get it .....Joss got it too and last but not least Shane too!!!!!

It has been a hard week no sleep and sick sick whinny people

Please pray for Connor to get well soon and that his heart will be okay from this virus

1 comment:

Angee and Thom said...

Good grief! Grab your umbrella my friend it seem to be pouring at your house! Sending prayers for a speedy recovery.