Love of my Life

Love of my Life

Heart Mother

One day my world came crashing down,I'll never be the same.They told me that my child was sick.I thought, "am I to blame"?I don't think I can handle this.I am really not that strong.It seemed my heart was breaking.I have loved him for so long.I will not give up on this child.I will listen to your advice.I will give my child any chance.No matter what the price.I will learn all that I need to help my child thrive.I'll even use that feeding tube.My child must survive!Will he need a lot of therapy?Will he gain the needed weight?Please God, help me do this.I will accept our fate.When the monitors beep at night, it serves as my reminder.How many parents would love that sound.Tomorrow I will be kinder.As another Angel earns his wings,I run to my child's bed.I watch him sleep for quite a while.I bend down and kiss his head.I cry for the parents whose hearts have been broken.I look to You wondering why?Oh Lord, I just can't know your matter how I try.And yet, I trust you hold his life, and guide us through each day.My mind says savor each moment he's here,but my heart begs, "PLEASE let him stay"!From pacing the surgical waiting room, to sitting by his bed.From wishing for a good nights sleep, to learning every med.From wondering, "will he be alright?", to watching him reach out his hands.With every smile my heart just melts, despite life's harsh demands.For all who see that faded line.I look to them and smile.You see my child is loved so much.I would face ANY trial.That scar I trace with my finger (It's the door to his beautiful heart).God must have known how much I'd love him (Just as He loved him from the start).A heart mom is always a heart mom.Now wise beyond her years.For those who have angels in heaven,Our hearts share in all of your tears.Every day I will try and remember,I was chosen for him (and no other).I will always embrace that beautiful day.......When I became a "Heart Mother"

Wednesday, August 31, 2011

Update on Connor

My little man is feeling better not back to himself yet but his polka dots are almost gone!!!!!!!!

We have two weeks after the dots disappear before we can go into public and its been really hard not to do anything !!!!!! The kids seem not to mind just play outside all  day and do their rounds

Whitt started school on the 25th and it has been hard not having my big helper here with me !!!!!!
I feel a little over whelmed and house bored, I have washed and scrubbed everything possible I'm thinking I might go mad???

Our garden has given all of us something to do and the Tomatoes are wonderful and the Pumpkins are getting big

Well thats all for now Ill post pics later

1 comment:

Heidi said...

I can't believe it... German Measles! What the heck! That is CRAZY. I am so sorry. So glad he is feeling a bit better. Prayers that he keeps on the mend. Loves!