Love of my Life

Love of my Life

Heart Mother

One day my world came crashing down,I'll never be the same.They told me that my child was sick.I thought, "am I to blame"?I don't think I can handle this.I am really not that strong.It seemed my heart was breaking.I have loved him for so long.I will not give up on this child.I will listen to your advice.I will give my child any chance.No matter what the price.I will learn all that I need to help my child thrive.I'll even use that feeding tube.My child must survive!Will he need a lot of therapy?Will he gain the needed weight?Please God, help me do this.I will accept our fate.When the monitors beep at night, it serves as my reminder.How many parents would love that sound.Tomorrow I will be kinder.As another Angel earns his wings,I run to my child's bed.I watch him sleep for quite a while.I bend down and kiss his head.I cry for the parents whose hearts have been broken.I look to You wondering why?Oh Lord, I just can't know your matter how I try.And yet, I trust you hold his life, and guide us through each day.My mind says savor each moment he's here,but my heart begs, "PLEASE let him stay"!From pacing the surgical waiting room, to sitting by his bed.From wishing for a good nights sleep, to learning every med.From wondering, "will he be alright?", to watching him reach out his hands.With every smile my heart just melts, despite life's harsh demands.For all who see that faded line.I look to them and smile.You see my child is loved so much.I would face ANY trial.That scar I trace with my finger (It's the door to his beautiful heart).God must have known how much I'd love him (Just as He loved him from the start).A heart mom is always a heart mom.Now wise beyond her years.For those who have angels in heaven,Our hearts share in all of your tears.Every day I will try and remember,I was chosen for him (and no other).I will always embrace that beautiful day.......When I became a "Heart Mother"

Sunday, February 12, 2012

CHD has Given

1. Never Never Give up
2. The only thing that  matters in life  is our love ones hold them close
3. You are stronger then you thought you were
4. Mom knows best question everything including the doctors
5. Grey hair will be a normal from the first time you find out your a Heart Mom
6. Our children are amazing they don't let what they have been given change how loving feisty and how active they want to be!!! They are not text book
7. You can never give enough kisses or hugs
8. It is okay to sit and play and leave the house dirty !!!
9. I thank god for my baby daily taught me not to forget to pray for our blessings
10. Through all the Crap and struggle and heart ache at the end of the day I would never trade my Connor for anyone else. He had taught me that This life Sucks sometimes but you see the little smile on my babies face and that's all that matters!!!! Not the money not the house the cars the stuff its the people that we have around us and that is what CHD has taught me !!!

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