Love of my Life

Love of my Life

Heart Mother

One day my world came crashing down,I'll never be the same.They told me that my child was sick.I thought, "am I to blame"?I don't think I can handle this.I am really not that strong.It seemed my heart was breaking.I have loved him for so long.I will not give up on this child.I will listen to your advice.I will give my child any chance.No matter what the price.I will learn all that I need to help my child thrive.I'll even use that feeding tube.My child must survive!Will he need a lot of therapy?Will he gain the needed weight?Please God, help me do this.I will accept our fate.When the monitors beep at night, it serves as my reminder.How many parents would love that sound.Tomorrow I will be kinder.As another Angel earns his wings,I run to my child's bed.I watch him sleep for quite a while.I bend down and kiss his head.I cry for the parents whose hearts have been broken.I look to You wondering why?Oh Lord, I just can't know your matter how I try.And yet, I trust you hold his life, and guide us through each day.My mind says savor each moment he's here,but my heart begs, "PLEASE let him stay"!From pacing the surgical waiting room, to sitting by his bed.From wishing for a good nights sleep, to learning every med.From wondering, "will he be alright?", to watching him reach out his hands.With every smile my heart just melts, despite life's harsh demands.For all who see that faded line.I look to them and smile.You see my child is loved so much.I would face ANY trial.That scar I trace with my finger (It's the door to his beautiful heart).God must have known how much I'd love him (Just as He loved him from the start).A heart mom is always a heart mom.Now wise beyond her years.For those who have angels in heaven,Our hearts share in all of your tears.Every day I will try and remember,I was chosen for him (and no other).I will always embrace that beautiful day.......When I became a "Heart Mother"

Tuesday, April 17, 2012

A whole lot of this and that

Where have we been..... Connor decided that he would like to postpone the cath for let's say two weeks and catch a little cold!!! n

 So we were a no show for the 9th after a few hours on the phone I finally have him rescheduled for the 24th one week befor his surgery dat May 1st!

 So in the mean while we received a gift of love called bailey our sweet little emontinal support dog a gift for us to help connor heal from a neat family that trains the puppy's and then loans them out !!

 We had a week with bailey and it reminded me why I don't need another thing to look after sweet dog lots of work so bailey went home and the kids had their dog for a fun week thank heavens it was a loaner!!!

 We had some really fun things happen sprinkler line burst had to rip up all our flag stone and fix and replace all of the flag stone and we are still working on it

 My laptop is kapute along with all my photos music etc so so upset just need a hard drive 300.00 or so money money money

 Also u of u sent all my bills to collections even though it was on a payment plan so now I have to fight them or if I come up with full amount no worries they'll Wipe it clean great company if any of you make arrangements with the u for medical bills get it in writing

 Just add taking time off for preparation for the first cath and then scrambling to get time off two weeks later

I have decided to hate money it has been hard not to stay in bed all day but it's only money

 I will just plant a money tree lol

 Pray for us to win the lottery Most of all pray for con that's all that matters

 Walk by faith not by sight !!!!!!

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