Love of my Life

Love of my Life

Heart Mother

One day my world came crashing down,I'll never be the same.They told me that my child was sick.I thought, "am I to blame"?I don't think I can handle this.I am really not that strong.It seemed my heart was breaking.I have loved him for so long.I will not give up on this child.I will listen to your advice.I will give my child any chance.No matter what the price.I will learn all that I need to help my child thrive.I'll even use that feeding tube.My child must survive!Will he need a lot of therapy?Will he gain the needed weight?Please God, help me do this.I will accept our fate.When the monitors beep at night, it serves as my reminder.How many parents would love that sound.Tomorrow I will be kinder.As another Angel earns his wings,I run to my child's bed.I watch him sleep for quite a while.I bend down and kiss his head.I cry for the parents whose hearts have been broken.I look to You wondering why?Oh Lord, I just can't know your matter how I try.And yet, I trust you hold his life, and guide us through each day.My mind says savor each moment he's here,but my heart begs, "PLEASE let him stay"!From pacing the surgical waiting room, to sitting by his bed.From wishing for a good nights sleep, to learning every med.From wondering, "will he be alright?", to watching him reach out his hands.With every smile my heart just melts, despite life's harsh demands.For all who see that faded line.I look to them and smile.You see my child is loved so much.I would face ANY trial.That scar I trace with my finger (It's the door to his beautiful heart).God must have known how much I'd love him (Just as He loved him from the start).A heart mom is always a heart mom.Now wise beyond her years.For those who have angels in heaven,Our hearts share in all of your tears.Every day I will try and remember,I was chosen for him (and no other).I will always embrace that beautiful day.......When I became a "Heart Mother"

Monday, July 23, 2012


I guess I expected our hospital stay to be like the rest with a little to time to post and take photos.....

but then you add a two year old and I was lucky to run to the bathroom for a potty break without him trying to escape out the door down the hall!!!

 Before Versed
 After versed .......he was happy to be in the box funny boy

 Minutes after coming out of surgery ........................when I finally took a breath
 Our time spent in the CICU....... we took turns with our baby to make sure he didn't pull everything out
 Up to the floor day 3 ............. amazing little man
 Minutes after his chest tubes where removed!!!
 He loved his water and he loved being a big boy

 On our way home 7 days later what a week!!!
 At home on his pillow with his basket ball Love you so so much my little man
Here are the photos I was able to get while I could to document this time and operation for us not for get what he has gone through and to treasure for every minute of his life


Hope's Blog said... days is amazing. I am so glad he did so well...definitely hoping our stay will be similar in the next year or two. I bet he is pinker than ever.

Angee and Thom said...

I still can't believe he went home in 7 days. How has life been since?