Love of my Life

Love of my Life

Heart Mother

One day my world came crashing down,I'll never be the same.They told me that my child was sick.I thought, "am I to blame"?I don't think I can handle this.I am really not that strong.It seemed my heart was breaking.I have loved him for so long.I will not give up on this child.I will listen to your advice.I will give my child any chance.No matter what the price.I will learn all that I need to help my child thrive.I'll even use that feeding tube.My child must survive!Will he need a lot of therapy?Will he gain the needed weight?Please God, help me do this.I will accept our fate.When the monitors beep at night, it serves as my reminder.How many parents would love that sound.Tomorrow I will be kinder.As another Angel earns his wings,I run to my child's bed.I watch him sleep for quite a while.I bend down and kiss his head.I cry for the parents whose hearts have been broken.I look to You wondering why?Oh Lord, I just can't know your ways....no matter how I try.And yet, I trust you hold his life, and guide us through each day.My mind says savor each moment he's here,but my heart begs, "PLEASE let him stay"!From pacing the surgical waiting room, to sitting by his bed.From wishing for a good nights sleep, to learning every med.From wondering, "will he be alright?", to watching him reach out his hands.With every smile my heart just melts, despite life's harsh demands.For all who see that faded line.I look to them and smile.You see my child is loved so much.I would face ANY trial.That scar I trace with my finger (It's the door to his beautiful heart).God must have known how much I'd love him (Just as He loved him from the start).A heart mom is always a heart mom.Now wise beyond her years.For those who have angels in heaven,Our hearts share in all of your tears.Every day I will try and remember,I was chosen for him (and no other).I will always embrace that beautiful day.......When I became a "Heart Mother"

Thursday, May 6, 2010

My Heart friend Jess

My heart friend that is the most remarkable women I have ever known has sent this message  and wanted all that follow her blog to share it with our friends and family..................................



Jess wrote:
I believe that Stephen's purpose here on Earth 
was and is very obvious.

For the purpose he was sent---- will 
always be needed.

Stephen,
will always be needed.

I know that his story will live on for a long time to come.

Maybe even FOREVER.

Tell others about Stephen

please...
share his message with all that you know, love, or care about.

Help a friend,
or even a complete stranger

to
smile
find hope
love to live
value relationships
appreciate small things
live in the moment
forgive
come unto Christ
try harder
humble oneself
be kind
be meek
complain less
have temperance
recognize the spirit
be obedient
gain a testimony
be charitable
be compassionate
strengthen
have faith
embrace
endure
believe
repent
learn
value
serve
smile
trust
pray
hope
Y

2 comments:

She Made Mention said...

Thank you so much. That means so much to me. I often think and pray for your family. Connor is so beautiful. I LOVE his big eyes. His mommy is also very beautiful. I'm so grateful that he has a Mommy like you. I love reading your blog and am honored that you chose to share Stephen's story on your blog. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. XOXOXO

Your friend,

Jess

Melissa said...

Thanks for sharing all you have on Connors blog. I hope today is a good one!