Love of my Life

Love of my Life

Heart Mother

One day my world came crashing down,I'll never be the same.They told me that my child was sick.I thought, "am I to blame"?I don't think I can handle this.I am really not that strong.It seemed my heart was breaking.I have loved him for so long.I will not give up on this child.I will listen to your advice.I will give my child any chance.No matter what the price.I will learn all that I need to help my child thrive.I'll even use that feeding tube.My child must survive!Will he need a lot of therapy?Will he gain the needed weight?Please God, help me do this.I will accept our fate.When the monitors beep at night, it serves as my reminder.How many parents would love that sound.Tomorrow I will be kinder.As another Angel earns his wings,I run to my child's bed.I watch him sleep for quite a while.I bend down and kiss his head.I cry for the parents whose hearts have been broken.I look to You wondering why?Oh Lord, I just can't know your matter how I try.And yet, I trust you hold his life, and guide us through each day.My mind says savor each moment he's here,but my heart begs, "PLEASE let him stay"!From pacing the surgical waiting room, to sitting by his bed.From wishing for a good nights sleep, to learning every med.From wondering, "will he be alright?", to watching him reach out his hands.With every smile my heart just melts, despite life's harsh demands.For all who see that faded line.I look to them and smile.You see my child is loved so much.I would face ANY trial.That scar I trace with my finger (It's the door to his beautiful heart).God must have known how much I'd love him (Just as He loved him from the start).A heart mom is always a heart mom.Now wise beyond her years.For those who have angels in heaven,Our hearts share in all of your tears.Every day I will try and remember,I was chosen for him (and no other).I will always embrace that beautiful day.......When I became a "Heart Mother"

Sunday, June 13, 2010

Busy busy busy

We have had a busy week......Auntie brenda was up doing the little red riding hood ....She rode 100 miles she is amazing. It was so nice to see her and Connor man loves auntie bren she always takes him on wagon rides and never says no .....The kids love her and so do I :)

Little jossy fell asleep in Connors bumbo chair and it was so so cute .....But I had to move her to her bed.

we went on an a adventure to Lagoon since it was cooler we thought how nice it would be................The first hour was great then the lightening and thunder started???  no biggie right???? Then the rain......... it was coming down so hard you couldn't see a thing!!! We all were so so wet but it didn't stop us we were staying come rain or shine :)

It ended up being a great day Michael rode the Skycoaster in the rain all by himself he is such a nut !!! Jossy hates the rides but she loves the singers and dancers so we watched one of the shows............................... she just loved it :)

Whittney and Michael rode the rock-o-planes and whittney came off crying.......michael made it rock way too much ......Poor baby :(

Connor and I rode the marry-go- round and he loved it . We wanted to ride the train but it was so busy and I didn't want the germs LOL I am so so germaphobic :)

For the week we have been hanging at home play outside as the rain lets has rained so much that our lawn has mushrooms :)

Sunday is our movie day since the theaters empty so we are off to movie later since once again it is raining !!!

Love to all my family and friends

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