Love of my Life

Love of my Life

Heart Mother

One day my world came crashing down,I'll never be the same.They told me that my child was sick.I thought, "am I to blame"?I don't think I can handle this.I am really not that strong.It seemed my heart was breaking.I have loved him for so long.I will not give up on this child.I will listen to your advice.I will give my child any chance.No matter what the price.I will learn all that I need to help my child thrive.I'll even use that feeding tube.My child must survive!Will he need a lot of therapy?Will he gain the needed weight?Please God, help me do this.I will accept our fate.When the monitors beep at night, it serves as my reminder.How many parents would love that sound.Tomorrow I will be kinder.As another Angel earns his wings,I run to my child's bed.I watch him sleep for quite a while.I bend down and kiss his head.I cry for the parents whose hearts have been broken.I look to You wondering why?Oh Lord, I just can't know your matter how I try.And yet, I trust you hold his life, and guide us through each day.My mind says savor each moment he's here,but my heart begs, "PLEASE let him stay"!From pacing the surgical waiting room, to sitting by his bed.From wishing for a good nights sleep, to learning every med.From wondering, "will he be alright?", to watching him reach out his hands.With every smile my heart just melts, despite life's harsh demands.For all who see that faded line.I look to them and smile.You see my child is loved so much.I would face ANY trial.That scar I trace with my finger (It's the door to his beautiful heart).God must have known how much I'd love him (Just as He loved him from the start).A heart mom is always a heart mom.Now wise beyond her years.For those who have angels in heaven,Our hearts share in all of your tears.Every day I will try and remember,I was chosen for him (and no other).I will always embrace that beautiful day.......When I became a "Heart Mother"

Saturday, July 10, 2010

SO SO Busy

Okay it has been so busy around here.................................First I had some company come and visit which was great to see family :)

Connor man is getting around he loves to roll and he grabs everything to put in his mouth..................He will attack your food ????? I have been feeding him his bananas and apples but he just gives me that look ??? Like really mom this is all your going to give me LOL  Anyway he is such a good little boy he makes my life :)

Joss and whitt have been playing outside alot since it has been so beautiful here .......Hot but not too Hot so it is perfect for our beautiful back yard.

I did a few dumb things this week ..........................Ready for this I shut my hand in my car door????.......I dont know if it is from being so busy and sleep deprived or just plain stupid ........I go for the second>>>>

My thumb got the worst of it and it now is blue green and has been drained twice JUST Lovely to look at.

Second ......................................................I left my sweet little boy to with his brother and sister while I went running and they dropped him out of his high chair .........................I KNOW I FREAKED OUT how this happened has not been told??????>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>.. I just know that he arched his back and slid down the front of the high chair............................ thank heavens I have my doctor next door that ran over and checked him out ????? Dr. E said all is good and that he is a tough one :) His nick name now is tank because he is built like one LOL Anyway needless to say the kids will never do that again and I have made sure they are not left alone with him !!!!

Lesson learned he is not a sit there and watch kind of baby he likes to move and he will wiggle his way out of your arms and slide onto the ground if possible.

I also wanted to mention our little heart friend Annie is still fighting for her life and is still with us......................Doctors may know alot but GOD has the final say and he has shown us the power of love and prayer and how miracles can happen.....Amy I think about you both daily and send my love and hope for Annie .................We will never give up and will never stop praying for you and Annie <3 <3 <3

1 comment:

One Happy Heart Family said...

Sounds super busy not too fun though! Sorry about your hand :0) Oh and the highchair insident. Kylie actually fell out of hers one day, scared me to death. With her and her heart I am always so extra careful left her for 2 seconds, my hubs was even in the room and whack she fell out. Glad he just slid out LOL Your kiddo's are so stinking CUTE!!! Glad your summer is going so great! We still need to try and get together..