Love of my Life

Love of my Life

Heart Mother

One day my world came crashing down,I'll never be the same.They told me that my child was sick.I thought, "am I to blame"?I don't think I can handle this.I am really not that strong.It seemed my heart was breaking.I have loved him for so long.I will not give up on this child.I will listen to your advice.I will give my child any chance.No matter what the price.I will learn all that I need to help my child thrive.I'll even use that feeding tube.My child must survive!Will he need a lot of therapy?Will he gain the needed weight?Please God, help me do this.I will accept our fate.When the monitors beep at night, it serves as my reminder.How many parents would love that sound.Tomorrow I will be kinder.As another Angel earns his wings,I run to my child's bed.I watch him sleep for quite a while.I bend down and kiss his head.I cry for the parents whose hearts have been broken.I look to You wondering why?Oh Lord, I just can't know your matter how I try.And yet, I trust you hold his life, and guide us through each day.My mind says savor each moment he's here,but my heart begs, "PLEASE let him stay"!From pacing the surgical waiting room, to sitting by his bed.From wishing for a good nights sleep, to learning every med.From wondering, "will he be alright?", to watching him reach out his hands.With every smile my heart just melts, despite life's harsh demands.For all who see that faded line.I look to them and smile.You see my child is loved so much.I would face ANY trial.That scar I trace with my finger (It's the door to his beautiful heart).God must have known how much I'd love him (Just as He loved him from the start).A heart mom is always a heart mom.Now wise beyond her years.For those who have angels in heaven,Our hearts share in all of your tears.Every day I will try and remember,I was chosen for him (and no other).I will always embrace that beautiful day.......When I became a "Heart Mother"

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

Where does the time go

Really where does it go............

I am really have been bad at posting and even worse at putting some new pics up. I received a new camera and its a great one problem is its operating system doesn't work with mac. so until I can figure this thing out no new photos..........

Connor is getting so big and into everything his new nick name is moto moto since he is everywhere.

We were able to get the tree up and presents wrapped and wrapped again since moto moto is unwrapping them for me. But it is fun to see him check out the tree and try to pull anything and everything off of it, the tree looks a little odd since I didn't put lights or ornaments on the bottom of it just to save him from breaking anything but it hasn't stopped him yet?????

This will be his first christmas and jossy is really getting into it this year which is so much fun. She calls the lights on the houses stars and if she sees them she makes me drive around the neighborhood so she can see all the stars at night..................... My heart just loves her so so much

Whitt is busy with friends and more friends, I really think it is her way of getting out of babysitting the little ones since our house is so full of toddlers right now. I feel like she is ignored, because she is such a good kid. One day I will make it up to her

All is well, Connor is off to his heart doctors tomorrow and I can't sleep, well just worried............pray for my little man that all is well and that we will continue down the road of progress and no bumps.

Send our love to all our friends and families and promising that pictures are sure to come

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