Love of my Life

Love of my Life

Heart Mother

One day my world came crashing down,I'll never be the same.They told me that my child was sick.I thought, "am I to blame"?I don't think I can handle this.I am really not that strong.It seemed my heart was breaking.I have loved him for so long.I will not give up on this child.I will listen to your advice.I will give my child any chance.No matter what the price.I will learn all that I need to help my child thrive.I'll even use that feeding tube.My child must survive!Will he need a lot of therapy?Will he gain the needed weight?Please God, help me do this.I will accept our fate.When the monitors beep at night, it serves as my reminder.How many parents would love that sound.Tomorrow I will be kinder.As another Angel earns his wings,I run to my child's bed.I watch him sleep for quite a while.I bend down and kiss his head.I cry for the parents whose hearts have been broken.I look to You wondering why?Oh Lord, I just can't know your matter how I try.And yet, I trust you hold his life, and guide us through each day.My mind says savor each moment he's here,but my heart begs, "PLEASE let him stay"!From pacing the surgical waiting room, to sitting by his bed.From wishing for a good nights sleep, to learning every med.From wondering, "will he be alright?", to watching him reach out his hands.With every smile my heart just melts, despite life's harsh demands.For all who see that faded line.I look to them and smile.You see my child is loved so much.I would face ANY trial.That scar I trace with my finger (It's the door to his beautiful heart).God must have known how much I'd love him (Just as He loved him from the start).A heart mom is always a heart mom.Now wise beyond her years.For those who have angels in heaven,Our hearts share in all of your tears.Every day I will try and remember,I was chosen for him (and no other).I will always embrace that beautiful day.......When I became a "Heart Mother"

Saturday, January 29, 2011

So dear to my heart

I am so excited............................. I went and ordered my tickets for Paul Cardell Concert, It happens that my husband has to work so I will be able to go with my sister and I can't wait.

Connor man is doing well he looks a Little pale still having the effects of the flu, I called to
primarys to ask why he was changing colors, they said when these little ones get the flu it takes a lot of time to get them back to normal and their fluids need to be just right to have the glenn work. Not want I wanted to hear but we worked on the fluid in take and I think he looks a lot better............................................................ I just thought it was me be a worry wart!!!!

Conman has learned to run!!!! He loves to run when he has gotten into something he was not to be in so it is too funny to even get mad>> All I know is when he turns and gives me that devilish smile I just can't be mad at this gift of Love I've been given. Why was I so lucky to have this bundle of Joy !!!!!!

Never a dull moment,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, our kitchen flooded on Connors birthday so it will be torn apart in a few weeks and rebuilt which is fine by me, but that means that we will be moving out during that time to let them do the work sooo I will be looking for a hotel as a new home !!!!!!! I think I like the idea no cleaning and Room Service mmmmmmmmmm Sounds like a mini vacation >> We will see :)

1 comment:

Annie-Staten said...

We are going to the Paul Cardall concert as well! Maybe we will see you there! :) We are going with our friends who have a little girl who has down syndrome and the same heart defect that our Conner had. If I see you I will make sure to say hi!