Heart is full

The last couple of days I've been told that I have been acting angry...... I have been!!!!!!!!
 I am so angry at so so many things!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Making ends meet with all the synergis shots

Hubby wanting to buy everything and I am the one saying no we can't right now we have to make sure Connor gets what he needs first!!!

My ten year old just being a pain in my ass and doing really stupid things.....for example hiding the fact that her girlfriend burnt Connors foot with a flat Iron so for a couple of days I believed that he had a blister from his crocs so I got so angry I threw them out !!!! Go figure 40. shoes out the window

My 16 year old breaking up with her mean and controlling boyfriend and thinking her life should end and wrote us all letters and then took off...mean while my oldest had to find her and watch her while I drove down to get her!!!!

my 18 who has her ACTS today and had no time to study because we had to deal with boyfriend drama......

Let me tell you the list goes on and I feel angry !!!!!

Then a Heart Friend I follow wrote this

There's an old parable about the power of gratitude, where two poor farmers were walking together and met their Rabbi. Upon being asked "How is it for you?" the first farmer responded "Lousy. Terrible, hard, awful. Not worth getting out of bed for." God was eavesdropping on the conversation and upon hearing this thought "Lousy??? You think your life is lousy now, you ungrateful lout? I'll show you what lousy means." Upon being asked the same question, the second farmer responded "Ah, Rabbi, life is good. God is so gracious, so generous. Each morning when I awaken, I'm so grateful for the gift of another day, for I know, rain or shine, it will unfold in wonder and blessings too bountiful to count. Life is so good." God roared with mighty laughter upon hearing this saying "Good??? You think your life is good now? I'll show you what good is!"

I just was angry at myself and the world for handing me what has happened to me and the choices that I have made and how I am living my life.

I woke up the next day and took charge I changed the birth control I was on and that helped alot

 I just let everything go....................

 I can not control the fact that we may need some help with money 

I control the fact I can go to work and help with the bills

 I am feeling better and not so mad at everyone

I have so so many things to be grateful for and why I was putting my family through this is just plain ungrateful

I just had too much of everything and no sleep..................................... bad combo

Also I ask for all of you to pray for my friends baby boy I have followed his blog and have a heavy heart for his family he has been given weeks to live and I am here complaining about what was given to me. when I started following Keegan and his moms journey is from the Beginning praying that some small miracle would help him but that was not in the cards he is only 2 and will not be here long on earth please pray for a miracle for the tumors to go away and peace for him and his sweet family they have been battling this cancer from the time he was born. My heart broken this sweet angel boy is the cutest sweetest thing and he was been given so so many things to deal with!!!!

pray for him ............