Love of my Life

Love of my Life

Heart Mother

One day my world came crashing down,I'll never be the same.They told me that my child was sick.I thought, "am I to blame"?I don't think I can handle this.I am really not that strong.It seemed my heart was breaking.I have loved him for so long.I will not give up on this child.I will listen to your advice.I will give my child any chance.No matter what the price.I will learn all that I need to help my child thrive.I'll even use that feeding tube.My child must survive!Will he need a lot of therapy?Will he gain the needed weight?Please God, help me do this.I will accept our fate.When the monitors beep at night, it serves as my reminder.How many parents would love that sound.Tomorrow I will be kinder.As another Angel earns his wings,I run to my child's bed.I watch him sleep for quite a while.I bend down and kiss his head.I cry for the parents whose hearts have been broken.I look to You wondering why?Oh Lord, I just can't know your matter how I try.And yet, I trust you hold his life, and guide us through each day.My mind says savor each moment he's here,but my heart begs, "PLEASE let him stay"!From pacing the surgical waiting room, to sitting by his bed.From wishing for a good nights sleep, to learning every med.From wondering, "will he be alright?", to watching him reach out his hands.With every smile my heart just melts, despite life's harsh demands.For all who see that faded line.I look to them and smile.You see my child is loved so much.I would face ANY trial.That scar I trace with my finger (It's the door to his beautiful heart).God must have known how much I'd love him (Just as He loved him from the start).A heart mom is always a heart mom.Now wise beyond her years.For those who have angels in heaven,Our hearts share in all of your tears.Every day I will try and remember,I was chosen for him (and no other).I will always embrace that beautiful day.......When I became a "Heart Mother"

Tuesday, October 18, 2011

Pumpking we will go

Thank heavens my babies are better Connor is still Little pale knowing how it takes him just Little bit longer to get over things he should be back to normal in the next couple of weeks !!!!

On the 14th we had to chance to go to the Wilcox farm and pick pumpkins with Hope kids and play games and also the had their faces painted it was a fun fun day!!!

Connor was so cute wondering the field and looking for his perfect pumpkin he walked and walked until him came upon a big big pumpkin and that was the one for him !!!!

The girls had a blast going out in the field but I have to say the did freak at the bugs in the field and I don't know if they could be farm girls !!!!!

It was such a beautiful day and adventure after the awful days we had at the beginning of the week this made it all better

Thank you Amy and CR for all that you do for HOPEKIDS you are truly god sent to these children!!!!

1 comment:

Angee and Thom said...

I ttell my kids the big ones have more guts! Jossy is so stinkin cute, and domestic!